Dalawang taon.
Dalawang bagong taon na puno ng kwentuhan.
May kasamang tawanan sa magandang samahan.
Dalawang taon.
Iniwan na ng panahon.

Ngayon ang bagong yugto.
Magsisimula muli.
Hindi ako makapaniwala
sa sakit na nadama.
Ito siguro ung sinasabi nilang pagkaiwan sa ere.
Ito siguro ung pakiramdam ng isang kakilala nung bigla na lang akong di nagparamdam nang walang sinabing dahilan.
Ganito nga siguro un.
May dahilan pero di na pinag-usapan pa ng mas malalim.
Wala bang halaga?
Meron pala.
Pero baka tulad ko noon sa kakilala, ayaw na lang maulit pa ang nangyari.
Ayaw na lang ulit magkwento ng kahit na ano kasi may mas pinahahalagahan...
At haha. Alam kong magtataka siya pero sino ba siya para magtanong.

Pero ang totoo, medyo nasulsulan lang ako ng kapatid ko noon.
"Kung ako 'yan, te, hindi ko na siya ittxt....."
Hahahahaha.

Ganito siguro ang pakiramdam niya
nung bigla na lang akong hindi nangumusta
Pangungumustang natural ko lang naman noong sinasalita sa kanya.

Ganito nga siguro.
Dapat tanggapin ko.
Dapat harapin ko.

Ito ang katotohanan:
Wala na siyang pakialam.

Nanaginip ako kaninang umaga.
Nung natulog ulit ako pagkatapos magising.
Ganun naman lagi.

Magkasama tayong lumabas sa isang isang lugar.
Kasama ang iba pang kasamahan.
Baka meeting.
Pero hindi tayo pareho ng nilakaran.
Doon ka sa kabilang kalsada kasama ang isa pa.

Ung kasabay ko, pasikat.
Nag-jjuggle siya at ang galing niya.
Nakakatuwa naman talaga.
Hindi ako masyadong humanga
...pero pinakita kong interesado ako kahit papaano sa ginagawa niya.
Nakakhiya naman sa kanya.

Tapos nag-juggle ka rin.
Napatingin ako at napangiti.
Ang funny mo talaga!
Kahit medyo palpak at tumalsik pa ung isang basong jinu-juggle mo, sa'yo pa rin napunta ang atensyon ko.
Hanggang sa ikaw na lang ang pinanood ko.
Ang saya! Nakakatuwa ka.

Nilapitan ka namin ng isa pa nating kasama...ung isa sa mga kasabay kong naglakad sa kabila ng kalsadang nilakaran mo.
Tumawid ka. Nagsalubong tayo.
Naiwan ung naunang nag-juggle na nag-jjuggle pa rin.
Tapos, sinamahan mo ako pabalik sa loob kasi may naiwan ako.

Ni-rrecord ko lang dito kasi bigla kong naalala.

Dear future husband | 05

Hey! It's been a while. How are you? Where are you? Are you just around? What are you doing? I hope you're having a good time and serving God in whatever ways you can.

Know what? I had a really tiring day yesterday...but I was happy. I submitted a book which I wrote for a storybook writing contest of the Department of Education, then attended a meeting with the Lakbay editorial staff right after. I was on the road for almost the whole day.  It was a Bulacan to UP, UP to Bulacan, Bulacan to Kalayaan, Kalayaan to Bulacan kind of day...yet I felt fulfilled.  I guess it' because writing is my passion (along with others that I'll tell you next time), and moreover, I write with the people I love being with - my brothers and sisters in Christ. It's nice to have people with the same passion around.

What about you? What are you passionate about? Do you also write? Do you also write about me...or for me? Haha. I'll know when it's time.

***If you do write, may you write for the author of love - Jesus.

God bless you! Take care of your heart.

Mai :)

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Thank You, Lord (Oct - last week)

Thank You, Lord...

- nakapag-compose na naman ng bagong kanta kahapon. Hihi. For You, Lord. Kahit na hindi po talaga ako magaling sa music, thank you po sa opportunity to compose and sing a song for You. <3
- patapos na ang story book na pinapagawa ni Sir para sa contest sa division. Waaah!  Salamat, Lord, sa help nina Jas at Olan. Hehe. I feel loved...as a sister and friend. :)
- katagumpayan sa natapos na ConCon...at sa never-ending GRACE nyo po. Salamat sa help at sa strength...at sa effort ng mga kasama. Ai, grabe, Lord.  Ang dami ko  pong natutunan. Salamat po!
- ganitong moments with you. Yiheee. Sweet! <3  Sa blog muna ang recording kasi di ko na naman po makita si notebook. Hehehehe.

Ano pong message Nyo sa'kin today?

Revelations 7.9-17

"..."These are the people who have come safely through the terrible persecution.  They have washed their robes and made them white with the blood of the Lamb." - :14

"Never again will they hunger or thirst; neither sun nor scorching heat will burn them...And God will wipe every tear from their eye." :16-17

Wow! What a wonderful sight, Lord! People all over the world are worshiping and serving You.  What an assurance that You will save those who will be faithful to You.

Lord, alam ko pong marami akong flaws.  Ang dami-dami pa rin..at ang dami ring hadlang para makapag-serve pa Sa'yo more. But, Lord, thank You po kasi andyan Ka pa rin.  Tinutulungan ako at ginagabayan ako sa mga decisions ko.  Nawa'y bigyan Nyo pa po ako ng katatagan para mapagtagumpayan ang lahat ng ito.  I want to serve You better, my Lord.  I want to please You always...kahit mahirap.  I know that these troubles will end at magiging victorious din in the end kasi victorious Ka na pinaglilingkuran ko.  Gusto ko pong mapabilang doon sa crowd na nakasuot ng white robe at sumamba sa Inyo.  Pahintulutan Nyo po ako, Ama.  And may I joyfully serve You habang nandito pa ako sa lupa.  Sa pangalan ni Jesus. Amen.

Thank You, Lord (October 1st week)

Thank You, Lord...

- love love love Nyo po na nararamdaman ko sa pamamagitan ang aking pamilya, kaibigan, at iba pang mga mahal sa buhay.  Yeys!  :D

- family bondings...dahil birthday ko at birthday ni Ate.  Kumpleto kami 'pag kumakain sa labas.  Kasama pa ang extended family. Hihi.

- nakapag-usap na po kami ni Ate Shara.  Grabe, ang tagal ko siyang hindi inimik unless tungkol sa VCS kasi nahihiya ako sa kanya.  Kulang pa kasi ang napapasa kong lessons.  Waaahh... Buti na lang nagkita kami sa activity ng East about Social Principles nung Sat.  Speaker din kasi si Pa kaya pumunta ako.  Pareho lang pala kaming burned out.  Salamat po, Lord, sa understanding at patience niya at salamat po kasi nakapag-open-up po siya at ako kahit papaano.  Salamat po sa time to help her fasten those Sunday School lessons together.

- Jassy's banner for my birthday, family devotion, dinner with loved ones, birthday greetings...na hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin na-rereplyan :O, surprise banner ni Jenggai, pagpupuyat na luto-lutuan with Nique, Mama's help sa food ng kids, pa-flowers ni Mayor. HAHAHAHAHA, Teachers' Day! (Oct. 03)

- FH UMYAF (Ate Nems, Ate Jing), FHUMC famlily, Polo UMYAF, HS friends...and everyone else who attended my birthday.  First time kong mag-invite sa bahay para sa birthday so I was very glad that they came. :) plus puyat lutu-lutuan with Nique. (Oct 01)

- meetings for ConCon (BulPAC, SBD, with Ate Ann and Pastor...)

- CG with the girls (Shayne + Ysh) and visitation to Ate Nelms' Tatay...and their fam.

Would they be willing to go?

I'm afraid
to ask
if they
could go
to our house
on my birthday

It started when he told me,
"Hey, you have friends. And you go to their house or wherever they are for them...no matter how far it may be. Whether they are sick or it's their birthday or for friendly gatherings, you go. But who among them are willing to go here for you?"

Slap! Why did he even ask? I enjoy going to my friends' house. It makes me happy to be with them on special days and on bad days. I love meeting their family. It somehow gives me a sense of belongingness... Char!  But more than that, I really love to make people feel happy and special.

I enjoy making cards, banners and the likes. I love writing letters. I really take an effort for the people I love. (I just failed when I was too busy last month + deppression stage).

So why did he ask? Why did it affect me? Is it really important to think about that?

The first questions shouldn't be dealt on too much. Hmmm... For the second one, I guess it's because I'm afraid of rejection. I know how far our home is from my friends in Taytay and in Bulacan...and I heard some of them complained when once asked to go here. I understand those hanash...and I don't want to compare it to what I can do for them. We have different commitments/sitiations/schedules/etc. And I don't do things to get something back. I do it because I want to.

I was afraid to ask maybe because I don't want to be a burden to anybody...and it would hurt to know if I am...though I really would understand.

I have friends nearby. I could ask them to go. But my friends from afar are also special. Well, I was told "You treasure people too much."  Ohhh...is that a compliment? I do not know. But another person told me before, "everything that's more than enough is not good."  Hmmm... Is it really everything? What about love? What about the love of God? :)

Is it important to think about these things? Hmmm...Yes, to resolve conflicts inside my heart.  And yes, to ponder. I have no one but myself and God ... oh, and you... to tell these things, too... Oh, how could I be too reserved on my thoughts and feelings. Haha.

I will be adding up another year, will they be able to go?

Anything goes.
Whatever happens
life goes on.
Keep loving! :)

Kaibigan | 02

Kumusta ka na?
Okay ka lang ba?
O may dinaramdam?
O may mabigat na pasanin?
Handa akong makinig.
Tutulungan kitang magbuhat
Katulad ng ginawa mo para sa akin.
Yun lang naman ay kung gugustuhin.
Ngunit kung di mo nais sabihin
Ikaw pa ri'y aking ipapanalangin.

Naipong Kwento

Anong gagawin
sa naipong kwento?
Itatago
o itatapon na lang?
Mahalaga pa ba?
Pakikinggan pa ba?
Sabi mo hindi ka nawala.
Sabi mo hindi ka mawawala.
Sabi mo...
kaibigan.

Ramdam ko ang lamig
Para kang naiinis
o irita
o iwas
o sadyang...
wala lang.

Bakit?

My friend, there is nothing compared to admitting that you need the Lord in the mess you are in. You can find comfort from the church. You can find temporary laughter in fellowships. You can keep yourself busy with work or even ministry. You can run away as far as you want with all those scheduled road trips. But if God has been raising a red flag, you have to stop.

Steady your heart and stop.

You need to stop so He can heal the wound. You can’t keep moving or else you will keep on bleeding. The wound will just get bigger and bigger.

And still, God will take the role of being your Healer.

He affirms you that it’s not a failed love story but it is a story that both of you can’t stay anymore. That someday, God will turn your love story to His story.

Even though you have resolved to believe that your joy has died, He tells you that He can breathe life to your dry bones.

When you feel that you are not valuable, remember: You are loved with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)

Thank You, Lord!

I woke up with the song, "Beautiful Day" by Jamie Grace, on my head. Waht a great morning it is!

Thank You, Lord...

- nakapagluto po ako ng breakfast kahapon
- beautiful morning and smile upon waking up :D
- magaling na po si Olan. Nakalabas na siya ng hospital. Yey!
- rest. grabe, ang dami po kasi talagang ganap.
- EBD UMYAF - nakapag-meet na ang officers at nairaos ang first activity. yeys! TGBTG! At syempre, salamat po kay Kuya na naghatid sa'kin sa SOF at nanlibre sa'min at sa supportive Ate Weng. <3
- productivity simula nung holiday. Grabe, pagod lang talaga pero sulit
- another day, another chance to serve You with all that I am.

Yeys! Thank You, Lord! :D

5.12AM

Musika Sa Coffee Shop

Pumunta ako sa coffee shop para magtrabaho.  Madalas ako rito.  Ang lakas ng tugtog nila ngayon pero ayos lang... Maganda naman ang kanta kaso medyo nakaka-distract.  Hanggang sa nagpatugtog sila ng isang kantang medyo double meaning.  Ang sakit sa ulo.  Ayoko ng kantang 'yon.

"Saglit lang 'to.  3 minutes lang." Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

Tinakpan ko ang tenga ko pagdating ng chorus.  Hindi ko na ata kaya pang ataying matapos ang kanta.  Hindi ako productive. Huhu.

Hindi ko alam kung anong parte na ng kanta nung napalakas ang pagsasalita ko sa sarili.  "Ang ingay!"

Haaay...  Nakakahiya pero hininaan nila.  Salamat sa Diyos!

Na-miss ko bigla ang Diligence Cafe.  Darating ang panahon na magtatayo ako ng coffee shop kung saan mas masarap magtrabaho.

For A Friend

Dear Friend,
Kumusta ka na? Marami akong gustong ikwento sa'yo pero pakiramdam ko hindi ka na interesado. Matagal na rin ang huli nating kwentuhan. Gusto ko sanang ma-update sa buhay mo pero napaka-general answers ng mga sagot mo sa "kumusta?" ko. Nasasanay na rin ako sa mga "ahhh ok" mo sa mga kwento ko. Immune na sa "I don't care starter pack" na kahit hindi mo sabihin ay pinaparamdam mo.

Parang kailan lang nung sobrang close natin sa isa't isa. We shared each other's secrets...tas bigla na lang.

Honestly, naguluhan ako. Hindi ko naintindihan kung bakit pero pinilit kong intindihin. Grabe ka, without a warning talaga o insensitive lang ako sa warning?

Ang labo mo! Pero hindi naman pwedeng magreklamo kasi "friend" nga lang, di ba?  Pero kasi "friend" nga, eh, di ba? Sana sinabihan mo man lang. Grabe ka po...

May mga articles on how to cope up with break-ups sa relationship pero hindi ko alam kung meron ba sa breaking up with a friend.  Ang sakit po! Pero wala akong nagawa. Hindi ko rin alam kung dapat bang mag-move on na lang. (Mind you, hindi lang sa relationship as bf/gf nag-mmove on ang isang tao kundi sa lahat ng klase ng relasyon. Alam mo naman un, di ba?

Dapat ba may closure din pag friends lang? Seriously, tanong ko 'yan. Kasi baka naman oo. Kasi nag-invest ka rin ng maraming time, energy at emotions. May love din dun lalo na 'pag close friends talaga.

Haaay... Nanghihinayang ako sa friendship natin. Na-mmiss na kita pero nakakapagod din ang "I don't care starter pack" mo. Oo, starter palagi kasi kahit sinabi kong sanay na ako, nasasaktan pa rin ako. Hindi ka siguro aware, 'no? O aware ka...pero "so what?"

Mahal ko ang mga kaibigan ko kaya hindi kita i-eerase sa friend list sa puso ko. You are loved...always. I will still be your friend...silently praying for you.

I hope we could catch-up.

or kung ayaw mo na akong maging friend,

I hope we could talk about this.

Baka kasi may nagawa pala akong hindi ako aware...o baka hindi ka rin aware sa ganitong pakiramdam ko.

Always here,

your friend

Dear future husband

Dear future husband,

This is my 4th letter for you...simula nung binilang ko ang mga liham para sa'yo.

Ano'ng ganap? I hope you're doing good.  :)

Alam mo ba, nakikipag-asaran ako sa co-teacher/friend ko kanina. Sabi ko ipagtitimpla ko siya ng kape 'pag kinasal kami.  Hahahahahaha.  Bawal daw sa kanya ang kape.  Papatayin ko raw ba siya?! 😂  Ang kulit.

Alam kong hindi siya ikaw.  Sure ako dun kasi....hahaha...di kami talo.  Mga katulad mo rin kasi ang tipo nya. 😂

Anyway, gusto mo rin ba ng kape? Hehehe.  Dati, ayoko nun.  Hindi kasi healthy kaya mas gusto ko ang gatas.  Pero nagustuhan ko na rin eventually...lalo na 'pag marami akong paper works na inaabot ng hating-gabi.  Haha.  Bongga, di ba? Kailangan, eh. Pero sinisikap ko nang matulog ng mas maaga ngayon. 'Pag kailangang kailangan na lang talaga ang puyat (talaga ba?)

Kape tayo minsan.  Gusto kong mag-devotion kasama ka over a cup of coffee.  Pwede rin namang gatas o milo o tsaa o frappe.  Kahit ano actually basta kasama ka...at si Jesus.  Hehe.  Lagi naman dapat, di ba? Pero habang wala ka pa, kami munang dalawa, okays?

Mag-date din kayo ni Lord.

Mai :)

07312017
06.06PM

Nagbasa ako ng mga lumang drafts dito sa blog at tawa ako nang tawa.  Hahahahaha.  Grabe ang mga alaala.  Maganda pala talagang sinusulat sila.  Hahahahahaha.  Maibabahagi ko rin ang mga 'yon sa tamang tao pagdating ng panahon.  -Hahahahaha

Dear future husband

Dear future husband,

Pang-ilang sulat ko na ba 'to sa'yo? Hahahaha. Pinost ko 'to sa Google+ pero hindi ko sigurado kung meron ka nun.  Ilalagay ko na lang dito para maitago.

May google+ ka ba? Hahahahahahaha 😂 Alam mo, naisip kita ngayon. Sino ka nga kaya? Hahahaha. Sana kung busy ka man sa work mo kahit Sabado ngayon, magka-time ka pa rin para sa sarili mo...at syempre kay God.

Hoi... na-meet na ba kita? Funny!

Sana pag kinasal na tayo (hahahhhahHahahahaha) magtulungan tayo sa mga trabaho. Pagtitimpla kita ng kape para di mo matulugan work mo. Hahahaha. Gusto ko rin nun...saka blueberry chessecake....saka lasagna. Hahahaha. Pero sasapat na sakin ang magmeryenda mag-isa ngayon kasabay ng pagsusulat para sa VCS manual. Oha, oha! Sana mahilig ka rin magsulat. Mag-proofreadan tayo. lol. 😂 Parang sina Ma at Pa lang. hahaha.

Pero kahit ano talaga.

Mas paghandaan pa rin natin ang pagdating ni Lord, okays?

See you! Hahahhah

VCS, Lakbay...ang dami pong ganaaap. Help!

Dear Lord,
'pag natapos ko po ba ang VCS lessons at proofreading sa Lakbay pwede na akong mag-lovelife? 😆

Haaay... Joke lang po! Siguro, sense of accomplishment po ang reward ko sa sarili ko, 'no?

Kahit ano po. Basta, Lord, please give me wisdom and strength po.  I feel that didn't do much to deserve such trust from You. Waaahhh... Lord, why me?

Oooops... Sorry po for asking. Basta, thanks Dad! Huhuhaha.

Ang hirap na ang blessed ng feeling....pero ang hirap po talaga.

Help po, please...

*hugs*

Loveyou, Dad!  :*


Love,

Mai :)

Baon ng mga bata

Excited akong maging mom someday kasi parang ang sayang mag-prepare ng baon for kids. Bwahahahaha 😂😂😂

Na-inspire lang sa mga nakikita cute na food sa fb noon at ngayon...pati ung mga baon ng pupils ko nung first year of teaching.  Ibang klase talaga mga full-time moms (I'm a fan!)

But wait...hahahaha. Maayos na lovelife po muna, dear Lord. Hahahahahaha 😂😂😂

Saka po nawa'y makapag-prepare muna ako ng exciting na baon para sa sarili ko. Hahahahahahaha.

Salamat, Lord, sa inspirasyon.  This is sooo funny...and exciting. HahHHaha. Kaines! Haha! 😂

Looord,

May bahagi po sa puso ko na umaayaw na sa pagiging Grade Leader.  Ang dami pong trabaho...but these are ways to grow, di po ba?

Help me po sa lahat ng paper works, pag-llead ng mga ganap sa school at pakikipag-cooedinate ssa mga kasama ko.

Woooo...Meherep po talaga, Lord.  Help me to lead by your example po...at nawa'y magawa ko po ng mabuti ang aking mga responsibilidad bilang guro.

Amen.

Dear Lord,
Natatakot po ako sa deadlines at commitments kaya hindi po ako nag-yyes kahit free pa ang sched. Baka kasi biglang hindi ko po pala kayanin. Pero...sisikapin ko pong makarating sa mga dapat puntahan sa mga oras na 'yon. Okay lang po ba 'yon? :)

Sabi Nyo po, "Let your yes be yes, and your no be no."

E...Pwede pong pending muna. Matagal pa naman, eh. Ang dami po kasing gagawin. Para pag nag-yes po ko, pati puso ko po nag-yyes wholeheartly.

Na-ppressure po ako, Lord. Kailangan ko pong may matapos ngayon. Waaahhh.. Help po, please. Hihi. I know You'll always be there to help me po. Salamaaaaat po, Lord. Eto na po. Game! :)

Iloveyou, Lord. I'm missing our intimate daily conversations. Ako kasi, eh. Sorry po. I'll do my best po not to skip a day without reading your Word and reflecting on it. Lagi na lang po kasing cp gamit ko sa pagbabasa. Nakaka-miss ung Bible kong naiwan sa Stevia Farm. I hope I could get it back po. Please?

Thank You, Lord, for everything...and sa tulong at strength in advance.  Nawa'y magampanan ko po ng mabuti ang mga pinapagawa Nyo po sa akin. (Nakaka-guilty po kasi pag hindi.)  Nawa'y mapapurihan ko po kayo palagi sa isip, sa salita at lalo na po sa gawa.

Amen. <3

Walang karapatan

Walang karapatang humiling
Makiusap
Mag-demand
Magpasama sa kung saan
Magpalibre
Umasa
Masaktan

Wala na tayo
Alam ko
Malinaw naman

...
...

Pati ba naman sa blogpost ni-rrestrict ko ang feelings ko?

...
...

Salamat pa rin, Lord, sa honesty niya. :)

Lumalaya ako
Sa tula, sa awit, sa kwento.
Salamat, Panginoon, sa mga ito

Lord,
Sorry...for my mood swings 'caused by hormonal imbalance.  Sorry, Lord.  Sorry for my impatience.  Sorry for the negative words and thoughts.  Nobody heard but I know You did.  Sorry, Lord.  Sanay naman po ako sa taong galit.  It's just that I can't absorb everything today.  Sorry, Lord.  Baka pagod lang siya sa work.  Sorry, Lord.  Grant me wisdom and understanding.  More wisdom and understanding and self-control...especially during these times.  Sorry, Lord....and thank you po!  Thank you for always reminding me of Your love and grace...na dapat ko ring i-share through words and actions.  Help me live by Your example po.  Iloveyou, Lord. Thank You and sorry po ulit.
Amen.

Nauna pa ang Langgam

Ang hilig magpahain
Di naman kakain
Isang oras na ang pagkain
Wala pa rin

Gutom ba talaga?
Bakit nauna pa ang langgam?

04252017

Dear Lord,
I constantly rely on your love and grace.  Please help me to become a better person everyday.  Please help me to stay focused on serving You and loving You more each day.  Remove all my selfish desires...and may my desires be always what you want for me.  Amen!

After work thanks

Thank You, Lord...

- natapos ko na po ang cards ko
- na-check na ang cards ko
- pipirmahan na ni Sir ang cards ko
- nagawa ng on-the-spot tula ng pasasalamat para sa aalis na principal
- mga naitulong ng principal sa aming paaralan at pagiging mabuti niya sa akin at sa aming lahat
- highscool bestfriend :)
- walang pasok bukas.  Yehey! Walang pasok bukas.  Makakagawa ako ng forms dito sa bahay.  Yey!  Thank You, Dad!  :D

Sat Thanks!

Thank You, Lord...

- early morning walk with Happy

- morning exercise

- brother dear swept the dried leaves in our yard

- puyat work nights, coffee, bread and accomplishments (kahit papaano)

- encouragements and reminders to do my job well

- sprained foot that's getting better (but not much.  It still hurts when moved in certain ways.)

- Your WORD :D <3 a lamp unto  my feet and a light unto my path
- motivations to finish my work

- encouragements to just dance... and reminders not to force my ankle

Good morning, Lord!

It's time to start my day.

Please be with me all the way.
Help me po to finish every pending task I have.
Amen!  :)

Prayer for the street kids and their teacher

Super touched ako sa video ng estudyanteng nagtuturo sa tabi ng daan.  <3  Naalala ko ang mga batang tinuturuan ko rin noon.  Ai, kaiyak. :')

Dear Lord,
Sorry po sa mga pagkukulang ko bilang guro nitong mga nakaraang buwan.  Hindi ko po nabibigay ang best ko.  Sorry...  Salamat po sa grace at sa chance to be better sa mga susunod pang mga araw.  Please continue to use me po for Your glory...kahit na feeling ko po hindi ako school teacher forever.
I-bless Nyo rin po si Dara Mae, ung estudyante sa video.  Nawa'y patuloy po nyang gawin un at 'wag magbago sa mga susunod pang panahon.

I-bless Nyo po ang mga street kids.  Kayo po ang mag-provide ng needs nila araw-araw at nawa'y tulungan Nyo po silang makaahon sa buhay.  Ilayo Nyo po nawa sila sa mga panganib at magkaroon po nawa sila ng mabubuting impluwesya sa buhay.  Crucial po kasi sa development ng bata ung age tapos nasa lansanan.  :'(  Mag-tap pa po kayo ng maraming tao para tumulong sa kanila.

I love You, Lord at super thanks po sa love and grace.  Nawa'y ma-share ko pa po ito sa iba.  Amen!

Second letter for FH without a name...yet

Dear future husband...without a name yet,

Hi!  This is my second letter for you.  I don't know if you know about this blog, but I hope you'll be reading this letter someday.

How are you?  I hope things are going well with your life.  If not, I pray that God would give you strength and everything else that you need to overcome any trial you are facing at the moment.

I know it's weird to write you letter without knowing you yet, but I 'll write anyway.  Besides, I accept the fact that I'm really weird in some ways.  Hahaha.

I'm writing to say sorry for messing up with my life.  I'm sorry for the past mistakes I cannot even dare to write.  *deep sigh* Sorry...

It may be hard for you to love me because of my scars, but I hope you still would...someday.  And that's what I will do in return.

Love lots,

:)

Minsan, kailangan mo lang ng go signal para mag-move on...at makaka-move on ka.  ;)

Dear Lord,

Sana pag nagkita po kami this week 'wag niyang kamustahin ang lovelife ko katulad ng ginawa niya kanina. Hindi po ako ready magkwento sa kanya about dun. Hindi po ako ready mag-open sa hindi nakasubaybay sa kwento. Hehehehehhee. Please? :)

Love lots,
:)

And so it goes...
I got dizzy but didn't say a word.
But Papa saw the meds.
"Mai, hindi ka umiinom 'no?"
Hala, lagot.

Still, meds is for the weak.

And okay, weak na kung weak.

Magpapakabuti akong anak.... :)

Dizzy me
Headaches
My stomach's wanting to push everyhing out.
Getting worse
Not complain
Did not follow the doctor

E kasii...
Meds are for the weak. 😂😅

More headaches
Just have to release
Out!

You are the truth in this world full of lies and deceptions.  Please help me to stay focused.  Help me to guard my heart, dear Lord.  Amen.

#lovelovelove
#Jesuspamore 👆👆👆💕

Bakit Hindi Tayo Nagkikita

Madalas tayong magplano ng lakad pero hindi naman natutuloy.  Minsan nga, tinatamad na ring magplano.  Bakit nga ba?  Bakit hindi tayo nagkikita?

Dahil malayo? Ilang oras ang byahe para lang magkita tayo.
Dahil magkakaiba ng oras ng trabaho?  Pang-umaga ako at pang-gabi naman ang ilan sa inyo.
Dahil busy?  May kanya-kanya tayong kaabalahan sa buhay at trabaho.

Dahilan nga ba talaga 'yon?  Madali lang naman sa'king gawan ng paraan makipagkita sa mga kaibigan, lalo na ung mga malalapit sa akin, kapag gusto ko.  Kaya kong bumyahe papuntang Taytay, makipagkita sa SM North o dumalaw sa bahay nyo.  Madali lang 'yon kahit busy ako at busy kayo...kasi gusto ko.  Nagagawa ko nga dati, eh.  Bakit hindi ngayon?

Na-mmiss ko na kayo at gusto kong makibalita sa inyo.  Gusto kong ma-update sa mga nangyayari sa buhay nyo.  Gusto ko kayong makita pero minsan, nahihiya ako.  Minsan, ayoko nang mag-initiate ng  kitaan.  Hindi dahil sa alam kong tatanggi kayo...kundi dahil ayokong magkwento.  Sigurado kasing kakamustahin nyo ako at hindi ako handang magkwento kung kamusta na ba ako.  Sigurado akong itatanong nyo kung kamusta na "kami" at hindi ko sigurado kung masasagot ko ba ang mga tanong nyo.

Pasensya na, ah.  Ang unfair ko ba?  Kaunti lang ang mga napag-kwentuhan ko.  Sorry kung madamot ako.  Hindi ko kasi talaga alam kung paano ba 'yon ikwento.  Hindi na rin naman kasi ata pinagsasabi pa ang mga ganun.  'Pag tinanong nyo siguro ako baka tumawa lang ako.  Hahahhaha

Kanina, kinamusta ko ang isa sa inyo.  Ayun, papunta siya ngayon dito sa bahay.  Nakaka-miss din kaya okay lang.  For sure, magtatanong siya.  Hindi ko alam kung sasagot ako 'pag nagtanong siya.  Hindi ako handa.  Hahaha.  Baka nga tumawa lang ako.  Maiintindihan kaya niya ang ibig sabihin ng tawa ko kung sakali?

Miss ko na kayo.  Sorry, ah.  Magkakabalitaan din tayo.  Magkikita rin tayo.  Pwede naman sigurong ibang bahagi na lang ng buhay ko ang ikwento ko sa inyo.  Hehehehe.

:)

Dear Lord,
I pray for healing for my dad...and everyone else's dad who is sick at the moment.  In Jesus' name.  Amen!

Bus Preacher

It was March 1, 2013 when she first stood up on the bus to preach.  She didn't remember the date until she found the bookmark given as a souvenir on an event that day.  It's been 4 years and 3 days.  As she sat on the same side of the bus last night, she knows she's coming back.  She's coming back.  Yey!  Thank You, Lord!  :D  :)

2 Peter 1

The reading today is 2 Peter 1:16-18...but I preferred reading the whole chapter to better understand.  I'm not a theologian or an expert in God's Word but I'm sharing my reflections here. (Good thing it is that I can't find my journal so I can share with you again.  :) )

"For we did not follow cleverly devised stories when we told you about the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ in power, but we were eyewitnesses of his majesty." - 2 Peter 1:16

The disciples can clearly speak about the truth about Jesus because they saw it first hand.  They were eye-witnesses when a voice came from heaven saying that Jesus was the Son of God.  This, through their faith and by the power of the holy Spirit, made them legit messengers from God.

Because of this, they're call was clear to them.  It was to share/spread what they have seen.  They must not keep it for themselves.  Why?  Because the message of love, hope and salvation through Jesus Christ is not only for them but for everyone.

Doing God's call to spread the Good News about Jesus requires their immediate action for the Lord made it clear to the author that he had little time left on earth to share.  He made every minute count and every opportunity to remind his fellow Christians about God's call to do our best in our Christian living, to keep ourselves pure, and to remain loyal to Him until the Day our Lord Jesus Christ comes.

That message is not only for the Christians who lived before but also for all of us living today.

May we continue experience God's love everyday and be able to share the Good News and our experiences/testimonies in our walk with Him.  Amen! :)

He's changing...

And/But so do I.

...

Too late?
Why?
Sorry...

Dear future husband without a name yet

Dear future husband without a name yet,

Hahaha. It's funny that I'm writing you a letter though I do not know who you are...yet.  Have we met?  Have our roads crossed somewhere?  Are you the one I am with for the past 5 years (or almost seven, counting the years of realizing love)? Or are you somebody else?  Have we met in church?  Are you someone I admire because of certain qualities? Or are you someone great whom I do not notice yet?  Have we met in school?  Are you my classmate or schoolmate in grade school, high school or college? Hahahaha. Oh well, highschool could be the most possible, if ever.  But wait, whatever.  I'll never know until the right time comes for nothing is impossible with God. Hahahahaha.

Whoever you are, I want you to know that I prayed for you this night.  I prayed for your job and your family.  I prayed that God would keep you safe from harm and guide you every step of the way.  I prayed for your spirituality: that you may grow closer to God and that you may become a good leader in our family someday... 'Cause, you know, I'm hoping and praying that the man God would give me as a leader would lead me and our future children closer to Christ.

I prayed for you...and am continuously praying as I write.  I'm asking God to bless you with all the things that you need, to give you strength and courage, and to always empower you with the power of the Holy Spirit.

It's been a long time since I last time I remember praying for you without a name.  I remember doing this in college and maybe not that often when I found the one I am with today.  So I'm writing to remember this day.

I'll be praying for you for the next days.  Maybe it's not yet the right time to know who you really are.  Let me prepare first, okays?  No need to rush love.  As what people say, "Mas mabuti nang sigurado kesa magsisi sa dulo."

So...that's it for now.  God just suddenly woke me up to pray.  I need to catch some sleep.

See you...soon?

Oh... I mean, see you on the right time.  Approach me... 'cause maybe I won't do it first. Hahahahaha.

God be with you always.

Mai :)


PS May heart smiled while praying for you.  Kilig, ganun. Hahaha ;)

............


Dear God,

I have my own preference but Yours is always the best.  Please help me to become more submissive to You.  Take my heart, Lord. May I not manipulate or become impatient.  May Your will be done. In Jesus' name, I pray.  Amen.


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02 03 2017

So here I go...
Thinking,
"I can't contain how I feel.
I already talked to God
but I feel more like writing Him
a love letter."

So here I go...
Rethinking,
"Oops... Is this the right place to write?
I think I opened the wrong blog.
Maybe I'll just sign out...
But wait, I want...
To write."

Hi, blog!
I missed you.
I haven't visited you for so long.
A lot has changed.
Some remained the same.
I'll write to you again soon.

No, I won't say "promise".
Just let my 'yes' be 'yes'
and my 'no' be 'no'.
I hope I could do what I've said.
Goodbye for now.
I'll see you soon.

:)